Just Taking It Day by Day

I woke up this morning from a horrible nightmare! I know I have been a little sad here lately, not that anyone knows that thou. I have seemed nothing but excited. So, I guess it had to come out thru my sleep huh?

All I really know is how bad I felt after this dream, or nightmare. Basically, my baby didnt live. I dont know exactly why, but I know she didnt make it. I know in this nightmare that I just kept crying. With all the issues that I am having with having 2 different antibodies in my blood, I have been informed that it wouldnt be in my best interest to have any more babies. Which just really affected me all the more.

I know this is nothing more than my mind letting this stress free. I really havent had any negative feelings about what might happen with Mackenzie, and I really dont think that this has anything to do with my delivery. I think just that we are so close to having Kenzi and being so close to Carli's birthday is getting to me more than I am admitting.

I am trying to think of all the positive things. I really think I will miss being pregnant. But at the same time, I am ready to meet Mackenzie!!!

Sorry for such a downer post, but I just felt that I needed to get it out.