Just Taking It Day by Day

I am excited and nervous all at the same time!! I just woke up for the day and had about 3 major thoughts in 30 seconds!! First one was that this will be my last day being pregnant ever!! Next one was the we will be meeting Mackenzie tomorrow!! And the last thought was, there is only 4 days until Carli's angel day!! Talk about a wide range of emotions there!!

I still have some more cleaning that could be done, but I am not pushing myself too much. I was having some contractions yesterday that were getting a little irritating. But, with the issues with the blood, my dr really wants me to hold off until tomorrow if possible. Nesting never has set in like it wish it would have!!

I have all my chargers and what not together, and getting stuff charged. I cannot for the life of me find my stupid Ipod, but I do have the Zune I can take, but the Ipod has a bunch of good songs on it! At first i couldnt find the charger, now i cant find the ipod!! i had lost the charger for my olympus camera, so friday when we went out of town, i bought a travel charger to have...guess what! i found the original charger!!!! i have my bag for the most part packed. just some last minute things that i will throw in tomorrow before we leave. i have to be at the hospital at 10:30am and surgery is scheduled for noon!!

i have had Mackenzie's bag packed for forever!! i am just worried that Casey is gonna think i am taking too much!! i have my bag, mackenzie's bag, then i want to have the laptop and camcorder bag. i also want to take my body pillow and one of the boppy pillows for when Carter and Keaton hold her, Mikaela can use it too, but I have a feeling she wont need it!! I just cant believe we are at this point~!! I have so many emotions running thru my head!!!

I woke up this morning from a horrible nightmare! I know I have been a little sad here lately, not that anyone knows that thou. I have seemed nothing but excited. So, I guess it had to come out thru my sleep huh?

All I really know is how bad I felt after this dream, or nightmare. Basically, my baby didnt live. I dont know exactly why, but I know she didnt make it. I know in this nightmare that I just kept crying. With all the issues that I am having with having 2 different antibodies in my blood, I have been informed that it wouldnt be in my best interest to have any more babies. Which just really affected me all the more.

I know this is nothing more than my mind letting this stress free. I really havent had any negative feelings about what might happen with Mackenzie, and I really dont think that this has anything to do with my delivery. I think just that we are so close to having Kenzi and being so close to Carli's birthday is getting to me more than I am admitting.

I am trying to think of all the positive things. I really think I will miss being pregnant. But at the same time, I am ready to meet Mackenzie!!!

Sorry for such a downer post, but I just felt that I needed to get it out.

My dr called me today and told me that he was gonna mess everything up!! I was like...OMG, what now??? He said, no it wasnt anything bad!! Thank goodness!! He said that he has been informed that we need 3 days leeway for the blood now, and that I can either have Mackenzie at noon on the 13th, or noon on the 17th! Note: no noon on the 14th!!! Little stinker...i know it has to do with the big 12 tourney!! he was all for the 14th with a 7:30 a.m. c-section, but a noon one would interfere with his going to the games in KC!! he hasnt actually told me this, but i KNOW that is why!!

i asked him if i could get back to him about it, so i could ask casey what day he wanted...he said sure, just that he wanted me to try to get back with him today if possible so they could pencil in my surgery.

so i sent casey a text asking him what he thought. the 14th was actually the perfect day..that way i could be in the hospital over the weekend, then be home with my kids the next week with spring break! i went back and forth all day long waiting for casey's decision!! i told my mom over lunch that i would go with whatever casey thought and if he told me he didnt care, that i would probably choose the 17th (which is what she wanted me to choose anyhow!!) i had to call my reg. pharmacist for a work question, and told him what the dr had said. he told me he was glad that i had to make the decision and not him...so i asked him what he meant! he said well, he is superstitious...so to him the 17th was the only choice. you go from the 13th where she could have a bday that falls on friday the 13th to the 17th with luck of the irish!! :LOL: i told him good point!!

casey finally called me and i asked him what he thought...he said he didnt care, but that he had just turned in the paper this morning saying that he was taking the 14th off...so he said, why dont we do the 17th..he said he would just take the 14th off anyhow. so it has been decided that it was MEANT TO BE that Mackenzie is born on St. Patricks day like i originally wanted!! so now instead of 8 days to go, it has been bumped back up to 11!!!! :LOL:

either way i am super excited..as always huh??

on a side note, casey called me and told me that he bought me a surprise today...i couldnt wait to get home to see it after that!! he had asked me if i needed anything from walmart...i said not that i could think of....he said no rain forest bouncer or swing?? i told him, well we had the pink bouncer that we bought when we were expecting Carli, and I had a swing over in my grandma's garage that i bought from the consignment store when we were expecting Carli too! (which i will have to tell you about in a minute!!!) i told him i just couldnt justify getting either one when i had those... :( even though i would love to have the entire rain forest collection if i could!!
so anyway...i get home and mikaela told me to go look in the baby's room for my surprise! i was so happy, cuz it proved that he does listen to what i say i would like to get!!! he got me the rain forest jumperoo that i have said that i wanted since i saw it when i was pregnant with Carli!! Here is what it looks like:

http://www.walmart.com/catalog/product.do?product_id=5420743

I of course got it all put together and ready to go!!! so this got me inspired to go get the swing from my grandma's garage. I went and got it out only to find out that there must have been mice in there!!! i took the seat padding off and washed it, but i just dont think it is good enough. i told casey that i can get all the replacement parts that i would want for it for about $53 with shipping. it retailed for $140...so i dont think it is a bad idea to get the replacement parts and use it..it would basically be like a brand new swing. i would get the motor with the animals on it new, and the cover and straps, and the tray. here is the swing that i have....

http://www.fisher-price.com/fp.aspx?st=2002&e=product&pid=30548

plus the shipping time frame is 7 to 10 days....:LOL: i have that much time!!
well, anyway...that makes for my fun and interesting Thursday!! I think this should hopefully be the last time that her date will change!!!

went pretty good i thought!! he asked how i was doing...i told him that I AM DONE!! I told him about the waking up in a rush to the bathroom to throw up because of the horrid reflux....told him if it wasnt that, it was that I couldnt get comfy!! I have gained a total of 16 lbs this pregnancy. Blood pressure was good. told him about my pitting edema, he wasnt worried since my bp has been good. just told me to try to kick back and relax if possible.

as for the wonder blood issues, he said that i have developed ANOTHER antibody. so now i have a duffy antibody, and a CW antibody. makes for some interesting fun with me!! my regular dr said that he has talked to my maternal-fetal dr, along with 3 or 4 other maternal-fetal drs. they all believe that i should have no problems with delivering here at our small hospital. he said that we will draw blood, then have it sent to the bigger hospital to have it typed and crossed and ready to go for my c-section. he said that the antibody titre showed both antibodies at 2, which is good news. neither is too high!! that is great!! he said they will more than likely just go ahead and give me the blood after my c-section, just in case, so that I dont have to worry about developing another antibody. the only main concern could be that with mackenzie, she could have some issues with jaundice, but that they will be checking her bilirubin more than most babies, and they will do some other blood test on her too. dr said that if there shows any signs of ANY problems with either Mackenzie or I, he will not hesitate to ship us out to one of the bigger hospitals...which i think shows that he is a good dr!!

so, as of now, we will be delivering more than likely EARLY morning March 14th!! He does after all have to make it to the Big 12 tourney in KC...or so he says!!! I have another appt next monday, then i will have to go have blood drawn thursday...then we will be having Mackenzie friday!! oh, and he had some more blood drawn today to check on my hemoglobin. the nurse called me this afternoon, said the good news was that my iron levels didnt drop, but that they didnt rise much either...so now i am having to take my iron TWICE daily!! i told her i was doing good to make sure to take it the one time...she just said take it morning and evening. so i will take it at work, and i think i will put my bottle that i have at home down by my heartburn meds...to remind me!!!